i don't really know anything

for if i was to believe in dreams
for if i were to believe in life
and for if i were to mix the two
i wouldn't really know what i'd choose

even pain and happiness
make smy head dissy at times
i can mistake one for the other
and only realise in due time

which one was true and which one false
am i to live in the present
or contemplate my past
for retrospect makes sense
but it could all be false

for if i were to to live in my memories
anyway i seem to be doing that
then the emotions could all just be a thing in my head
for if i'm actually not feeling anything
and only making myself believe that i feel it
for then i'm a stone id say
or a dog, a donkey, a book, a pen
or the wind, the grass, the look in your eyes

for if i saw myself as loved that day
how is it that it faded away
for if people can mask and mirror
is it only touch thats real