draining.conversations.

i think about life on a step by step basis....step one wake up..step two brush..maybe now ..maybe later...step three bathe. smoke a cigarette.

what if i was someone else and snatched the cigarette from your mouth....well i would have slapped you if you were someone else. it is you that is why i didn't say anything. see now now you're sooo bold.see see, this is why i like you.

why don't you stay for a day more. what work do you have there anyway. why do you want to exert yourself on me like this. when i'm telling you i want to go then i want to go. this is how i operate. its not like i'm not liking it here. why are you making it sound like i'm trying to run away from you. when did i ever put it like that. and how does it even matter to you whether i'm here or not. see past few days you haven't worked at all. when are you going to work. that's something you don't need to be worried about. i figure out ways of dealing with it. its called prioritising. right now i like spending time with you so i'm doing so. and then handling my work on the side. see see you're getting agitated and furious at this, see. its the same thing like you asking me what work do you have there. i'm not getting angry and how is it the same thing. i'm sorry but i assumed that you don't have any work there thats why you were hanging around here and maybe you could a day or two more. what is your work there anyway?i don't tell myself that how can i tell you.